Well that was a whirlwind! I’m going to write about this whole trip in two separate posts.
Part 1: 2013 No Gi Pan Ams
This was my first big tournament as a new blue belt and wasn’t entirely sure what I was getting myself into.
If you read my previous two blog posts, you would know that I have been struggling a lot with anxiety over the last several competitions. It was honestly getting to such a debilitating state where I needed to constantly distract myself in order to keep from hyperventilating.
About a week out from this tournament, I started not even being able to sleep – and hard training on no sleep is NOT a good combo!
Writing out my thoughts in the previous posts really helped a lot. I process things well if I write through them.
The key point that helped in this competition was: remembering how much work I have actually put in – and that I deserve to be competing. The other thing that helped was banishing negative thoughts. Every time a negative thought sneaked into my head, I would shove it out and speak three positives.

I felt really good going into my first match! I was a bit sad that I had the by into the semifinals (only 6 in my division!), but figured I could make up for it in the open.
I ended my first match via RNC with a very short time to spare. She tried blitzing me from the start – and man was she strong! I kept her in closed guard because I was concerned she would just smash my open guard – I’m not that confident in my No Gi skills at this point.
She got warned and penalized twice for face palming me – her fingers were up my nose at one point and I ended up with a shiner the next day from that.
I’m going to be working on my omoplata from guard. I had the set up a few times but never went for it. More drilling needed!
That match put me into the finals where I quickly tapped although I’m not entirely sure what happened (my videographer was unable to work my camera). I ended up at the medic corner getting my neck evaluated and iced – along with a recommendation that I abstain from the open. Boo!
All in all, I’m pleased because I handled my nerves well and did not stress out nearly as badly!

Making Weight
I’ve got a whole huge essay in my drafts folder on this subject, just haven’t figured out the best time to upload it. So consider this a sneak peek!

For this competition, I got my weight down to the lowest I think it has ever been in my adult life! I ended up weighing in at 135 on the official scale.
Slight spoiler for part 2… But I got some advice that really confirmed what I’ve been feeling (but not wanting to face)… And I’m gonna work my way down to featherweight instead of competing lightweight. The reason mainly being my body frame size – I always feel like a midget when competing.
Coach thinks I could make it down in time for No Gi Pan Ams. He thinks I can do it since I “eat like a fat kid” normally. I can change my division until Oct 26, so I I can get down within 4 lbs by then, I’ll do it. That’s 8 lbs in 3 weeks. Can I do it? Yes. Will it be tough? Probably…
Part 2: Lloyd Irvin Mixed Martial Arts Academy – Coming Soon!
Congrats! We may have crossed paths. I was competing that day as well. See you at the next one!
Cool! What division were you in?
Middle Heavy and I fought in open weight
Cool! I did light and had to skip the open. I’m hitting up the Chicago Open oct 12, Abu Dhabi trials oct 20, and No Gi Worlds nov 2. Will I see you at any of those?
Yes, I’ll be doing the Trials and No Gi worlds. I’ll see you at both! Good luck 🙂
Coolness! What division will you be in at the trials? I need to get registered today…
I’m gonna do 145-158 or 158+ depending on how much I weigh at the end of the week.
Nice! I’m debating between 145 and 132. Going to wait and see what my coach says I should do.